What a taboo.
I’ve spent the past month or so writing up pages and pages of different blogs, trying to make them funny or trying to give them a message and a reason for even writing them in the first place.
But my reason has been In front of me all along.
People saying that it’s become fashionable, that it’s a trend.
What if that wasn’t the case?
What if all these thousands of people coming forward and asking for help are in genuine need.
What if we’re all just riddled with ADHD and you can’t stop us.
So let’s get down to it.
I married my sister on the 21st of May 2021.
That never gets a good reaction, let me try again.
On the 21st of may 2021 I wrote and performed my sister’s wedding ceremony, marrying my sister and brother in-law together.
That’s it.
I’d say this is where my love of writing began. Before this my relationship with writing was a little rocky, it was mostly copy and pasted from Wikipedia and resulted in a lot of F’s. Apart from this one time in geography that I managed to bag an A from copy and pasting every single word from a rogue website I found fifteen pages into a google search, I have never been more proud… and neither had my parents.
Anyhow I didn’t have the best relationship with words, and a part of me can now understand why I was diagnosed with dyslexia but also if you ask me, I think it’s a bit of an insult towards Wikipedia.
I started writing again because I broke myself physically, I had gone snowboard over tit and ended my time on the slopes earlier than planned, You can read about this is in my post called ‘My ACL and I(CE).
I adored picking up my laptop and writing again.
But why?
I had hated it so much in the past.
What had made me love it so much now?
Let’s delve into the my own psychology, I say my own because I’m no scientist, psychologist or doctor. I’m just me.
I’m Me. Hannah May or May not Davenport and I have ADHD.
I hope when you read along with me I can help you find comfort in who you are and that it really is okay to be you whatever that may entail.
So to answer the question, I love writing so much now because nobody is telling me what I have to write or even how I have to write what I am writing about in the first place.
Nobody tells me that this has to go here and that has to go there,
Hey look I can even put my next line over here if I want
Here I am being rogue. This is confusing isn’t it.
But it’s fun and nobody can stop me.
Doing little bit’s like this as simple as they may be give me a tiny kick…or in more sciencey terms, a Dopamine rush!
Sciencey isn’t even a word. There’s another dopamine hit.
The world is just a little too boxed in for people like me and you and it clouds our creative minds.
What they don’t realise is the joke is very much on them because more often than not I find myself refusing to stay in the box which results in a rebellious mind. Whoops.
Have you ever had someone ask you to do something you were just about to do?
Does it make your blood boil just a little bit inside?
Me too.
From here I’ll now continue to ignore said person’s remark and continue not to do what I was originally about to do in the first place. Some may call it spite. I call it, this was originally going to be a fun task carried out through my own willingness to give me a little kick through the day but you’ve now made it a chore so no thank you.
What I’m saying here is please just let me pick up the hoover in my own time. I will do it because I can’t stand mess.
I can’t stand mess yet sometimes I let mess pile up around me. I let mess pile up around me because originally I was tidying that mess up, but then I ended up in Halford’s buying a new windscreen wiper for my car because a monkey pulled that off five and a half months ago and what if it starts raining on my way to the gym later.
There’s so many twists and turns to ADHD, I love it.
I call it my superpower.
The majority of the time it fills my life with entertainment. I find that I can make myself laugh like no one can, my head is always full of thousands of unnecessary facts (Did you know that perfumes smell different on people with ginger hair) and because of my inability to not blurt things out at all times as soon as they enter my head I will always tell you the truth.
These are just a few things that come hand in hand with having ADHD that I appreciate about myself, and if you have ADHD and experience these things too, you should also treasure them.
So let’s all get diagnosed and learn to Love our Neurodivergent minds.
Hannah x